Life UPDATE...
It was a long time since I last posted something here... I did not post for the past few years because I was afraid to post things that I shan't. Looking back at my post I can see a change in me. Reading some events still make my heart heavy... I am glad that I have moved on.
Sign... after these years things in life have had a dramatic change. My family is in chaos. There is less favouritism but... My Father is having an affair outside!!! Everybody in the family shuns away from him now and so he doesn't care much about everyone else either. My grandma is especially affected by this matter. My Father could even bring that lady home and lied to us that they are just godbrother and godsister relationship... Shit him... He thought we didn't know any thing about them but we knew it all!!!!!
The biggest headache is that I am now furthering my studies. I do not have the time to handle the situation and I really do not know what I can do??? Now, he doesn't really care about the family anymore but I still need him to fiancially support my studies. Knowing that , I also have to try to live independently. In case he really leaves us one day. I make myself work and study at the same time. Having to juggle my 24h with work and studies is not easy. I really want to do well this time as it will affect my future so I really do not have much time for other activities. I have already cut down on unneccessary meetings.
Actually, it is also not because I do not have time to handle the situation. It is also because I will get emotional if I hear or know more about what my father is doing... It hurts us...=(
I am only trying to make the situation better by not aggravating the situation. I would try to spend more time with my grandmother and hope she is emotionally ok and not too affected. I do not want her to fall under depression again. My bros are ok. I hope my mom is ok also though we also do not talk much these days. This is very sad. My family is only not separated because of this house... =( We three brother, at least me and my big bro, stay together because of our brotherhood and our bond with our beloved grandma. The broken family seems impossible to piece back already. I just hope it can at least maintain it's shape now...
It was a long time since I last posted something here... I did not post for the past few years because I was afraid to post things that I shan't. Looking back at my post I can see a change in me. Reading some events still make my heart heavy... I am glad that I have moved on.
Sign... after these years things in life have had a dramatic change. My family is in chaos. There is less favouritism but... My Father is having an affair outside!!! Everybody in the family shuns away from him now and so he doesn't care much about everyone else either. My grandma is especially affected by this matter. My Father could even bring that lady home and lied to us that they are just godbrother and godsister relationship... Shit him... He thought we didn't know any thing about them but we knew it all!!!!!
The biggest headache is that I am now furthering my studies. I do not have the time to handle the situation and I really do not know what I can do??? Now, he doesn't really care about the family anymore but I still need him to fiancially support my studies. Knowing that , I also have to try to live independently. In case he really leaves us one day. I make myself work and study at the same time. Having to juggle my 24h with work and studies is not easy. I really want to do well this time as it will affect my future so I really do not have much time for other activities. I have already cut down on unneccessary meetings.
Actually, it is also not because I do not have time to handle the situation. It is also because I will get emotional if I hear or know more about what my father is doing... It hurts us...=(
I am only trying to make the situation better by not aggravating the situation. I would try to spend more time with my grandmother and hope she is emotionally ok and not too affected. I do not want her to fall under depression again. My bros are ok. I hope my mom is ok also though we also do not talk much these days. This is very sad. My family is only not separated because of this house... =( We three brother, at least me and my big bro, stay together because of our brotherhood and our bond with our beloved grandma. The broken family seems impossible to piece back already. I just hope it can at least maintain it's shape now...
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